Here's a short post. I'm feeling better today. I feel released from alot of work I've been tied down with lately.
Yesterday was pretty bad. We launched the project and I was so tired. My arms and fingers were so tired, and each shoulder felt like they had ten pound weights on them. It gets scary on days like those. The recognition of a new weakness luring around. I cried for most of the day, for more reasons than one.
Tired from working all night to launch, tired from all the content I had to write about, tired from being so wrapped in HIBM, feeling odd from being so exposed even though I've done this so many times before. I guess I don't want people to feel sorry for me. It's a silly feeling, I know but a feeling is a feeling. It's not always logical. Anyways, it was a pretty bad day. It was a bad time and a very bad sob session that lasted for hours and hours.
I had no problem letting it all out. It's hard imagining not having use of my arms.... But, I got some rest and today is beautiful as I'm hopping wineries. Had a good meal. Drinking some good wine and coasting through nature. There are those really bad days and it's about hanging in there so you can reach the good days. I feel relaxed and ready to tackle my next load of tasks and ready to sky dive as a way of bringing 32 years of age.