Not much to report for this weekend. I pretty much cooked, did work and errands...hmmm, déjà vu from last weekend?  

Just for fun, I am attempting to cook a new dish every weekend. Ever since we visited Thailand last year, I have been wanting to take a crack at cooking some homemade Thai food.  So, I finally did.

This weekend I made some Panang Curry and Som Tam, spicy green papaya salad.  I would say it turned out well and I got it to taste like it would at a restaurant. 

On Saturday night I was all excited to cook, because it was a new challenge. I love anything new that stretches me. Jason sometimes doesn't understand why I love to cook so much and often times, out of concern for my energy, he urges me to be less ambitious or limit myself to one dish. I tell him cooking is my solace, and I want to enjoy it to the best of my ability. Yes, it does require a bit more energy than the average person, but I can still do it.  It is my equivalent to going for a run, for a drive, on a walk, riding a bike...but since these are no longer an option for me I put my energy into other avenues. When I cook it is my time to completely tune out life, start and finish a project, be creative and run purely on my instincts all within a short period of time.  Besides, the advantage of cooking is there is always an immediate receiver that benefits from the project.

Not to be fearful or scared of what will happen in my future, but I sometimes think how much I would adore cooking with my future children...that and running with them while they play soccer or learn to ride their bike for the first time.  

This would be important to me.  I want to teach them so much.  With everything they do I desire for them to go above and beyond the required, and have passion for the areas in life that they deem value for their efforts to rest in. Down the road I might not be able to cook for 20 people anymore or chop my own vegetables or perhaps even move my own fingers, but at least I can teach them to love.  Love what you do and never do anything unless you plan on giving it your 100% in people, in ventures, in aspirations.  Always be curious, always be loving and fear is ok as long as you can move beyond it. Despite it. 

If you notice in the picture there is a black chair. On my really bad days I use this to help me shuffle around the house. Yes, yes I need to get a walker. That is in process. I was recently thinking on how I could increase my coolness and obviously a rollator came instantly to mind. All I need to do is wear old lady sweaters and mutter to myself and I could fit in the senior community center down the street. Oh wait, I already DO wear old lady sweaters and mutter to myself...hmmm.  

Well, I need to get back to work.